You may have been trying for weeks now to access the blog, only to get a 500 server error, if even that. I've been working on troubleshooting that, which has had even WordPress gurus fairly stymied. We'd finally figured it out (seriously, if you have WordPress trouble, these people are worth it) and the official solution boiled down to Ripley's call on LV-426: "I say we take off and nuke the entire site from orbit. Only way to be sure." I have the MySQL database backup of the blog which is what has the meat. Before I could get to that, the server itself crashed, unrelated to this. My ex fixed it, but while he was doing so, something else got borked somewhere, and while I was able to get WordPress reinstalled to a working model, everything freaked out at me when it came time to import the database file. So. We're going to nuke the entire website -- not just WordPress -- from orbit. He wants to do this while we're both available and online to communicate on what's happening rather than him doing something, me testing it half a day later, him getting a message half a day after that and ultimately having it take a month of us playing PM tag amid work and appointments and such to fix something we can likely get done in a day if we set aside a coordinated time to work together for an hour or so.

It's taken this long to get to the root of the problem, or even make this simple page because things have been insanely busy for me. Lots of appointments, including very unexpected ones, not just me but for others in my family (don't worry, as Han once said, "We're all fine now, thank you, how are you?") and then amid a brief hospitalization and a couple weeks of solid appointments, I was not only handling all that, but getting everything ready (including the car) for a drive east to Fort Wayne, Indiana, and getting the ball rolling for a Midwest region Die In for METUP for October 13th. I'm only squeezing in the time for this because at this specific moment, I can't get to sleep.

But never fear! The blog will return... somehow. And of course, the site will come back. I've been working on an overhaul. (Mostly in my mind, although I have a new template picked out and new graphics made. I think. I'll go back and look at them again to see if that's what I really want.) I'll warn you now... the overhaul is very different from what you've come to expect from me. My blog has been quiet for some time, even before it went belly-up into Errorland. That was because some time ago, I'd burnt out. I'd lost my fire somehow. As it was phrased in Buffy's opening bit in this song for B:tVS Once More, With Feeling...

I touch the fire and it freezes me.
I look into it, and it's black.
Why can't I feel?
My skin should crack and peel.
I want the fire back.

Now, through the smoke, she calls to me
To make my way across the flame,
To save the day, or maybe melt away,
I guess it's all the same.
So, I will walk through the fire,
'Cause where else can I turn?
I will walk through the fire,
And let it—

It's personal how I was able to reignite it, but boy howdy, did it ever come roaring back, and burned up whatever might have been left in my bag of fucks with it. My new layout... you get a hint of it from this page alone. It draws heavily on Emilie Autumn, one of my favorite artists.

After all...

Somewhere it's always time for tea